Sunday, February 28, 2010

Lazy weekend

I think I need spring weather to come so I can feel more motivated to clean my house and get moving on it. I don't have motivation at all - even though looking around should be motivation enough! This week is has been busy and my first full week of school for a LONG TIME and I was staying after school 3 of the 5 days for different things. So for THIS weekend, I'll blame it on the busy schedule. Next weekend I need to try to not have an excuse.

I'm going back on Phase 1 for the next two weeks before the wedding. Between Valentine's Day and MrG's birthday I have been a dieting failure the past few weeks. I need to get back on track and work out more consistently too. Other times I've dieted and gotten off track I'd just give up and forget about it. I'd eat whatever I wanted and stopped caring. This time is different. I was making progress, people have been telling me that they SEE the progress and I know I can do this!

We are heading to church in a little bit. MrG has to work at job #2 for the first time in over a month. They never give him any hours. He was tired and had a headache so we're going to the later church service instead of the first one that he usually prefers. We were hanging out with some friends last night and were out late. I had a great time though. :)

That's about it for this weekend! I hope everyone has a great week!!

Friday, February 26, 2010

I love you guys.

Thanks for all of the responses in my post about you. I absolutely love it.

I've been a diet failure the past week or so. I think I'll go back on Phase 1 for the next 2 weeks before the wedding so I can fix the damage I've done. It hasn't been much but I haven't lost any either so I need to get back on track.

I'm off to go chaperone a dance at school tonight. I'm sure it'll be a GREAT time. ::eyeroll::

Wednesday, February 24, 2010

My love note to the internet crazies:

While I love 99% of you dearly, there are a few people who have been posting less than appropriate comments on my blog. It's ok. I know people aren't going to agree with everything I say. It's cool. No problem. I can roll with the punches - that's an important trait for a middle school teacher I think.

Last night was weird. I'm not sure why someone would post that a "baby was on the way" and "the baby boy would bring us a lifetime of joy". A little bizarre. More explanation to what the thought process was behind that would be awesome.

Today I found a new special friend. Her name is (taken out to stop searches coming here). Unfortunately she thinks she's funny and hurtful. She's strongly mistaken. She has a very limited vocabulary and she isn't able to do anything but state simple obvious things - like the fact that I'm fat. Thanks. I know that. That's why I'm working on it. Lucky for me, I can change fat. She'll have a tougher time changing her serious issues.

I'm not going to humor her with posting what she wrote to me but I do hope she posts again. She has an interesting take on the lives of other people and I find it quite entertaining - just not for the reasons she thinks she is!

Sweet dreams crazy. Snuggle those dolls tight tonight and watch out for those pins. They might stick ya. "Everything comes around full circle" right?


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

Just for fun...

(and because I'm EXTREMELY curious)

Blog Reader Poll!!! (I'm lame, I know. Please humor me.)

Leave me a comment to answer these questions

- Where/how did you find me?
- Do you read often?
- Where are you from? (obviously don't give too much detail)
- What's your story? Tell me about yourself
- Where's your favorite vacation spot?

aaaaaaaaaaaaand GO!!
This one's all about you guys so make it good!!! :)

Monday, February 22, 2010

Happy 300 Posts!!

This is post #300. Isn't that special?

Can I just say that I love watching the Olympics? I've never been an athlete but I think they're cool and fun to watch. We watched Ski Cross - a brand new event - the other day and it was FIERCE. MrG prefers the summer Olympics but I love both. So cool.

This is fun news - Travis Cottrell is going to be the music minister at our church! He officially starts in May and I'm really excited. He's amazing and is going to be a huge blessing to our church.

My back has been killing me for the past week and today I finally got up the courage to do the Shred again. I've been a total failure this weekend with eating and all of last week with exercise so I've got some ground to gain back.

I'm tired and need to go to bed early. Our hopeful baby making sex-a-thon is over now and I'm kind of excited to go to bed to just... sleep. :)

I got new glasses today. I'll post a picture when I take a better one than what I took earlier. I look a little rough today.

Anyways... Happy 300!

Sunday, February 21, 2010

Doritos, cookies and my pants don't fit.

Last night was bad. Really bad. We went to a friend's house for a little "party" (it wasn't really a party it was just a get together but I can't think of what else to call it). The only food they had there? Doritos, chips and salsa and cookies. How can you be rude and not eat anything? That's just horrible, right? Yeah.... so..... SBD was out the window last night but I fully plan on jumping back on the wagon. Tomorrow. It's MrG's birthday! We're going out to dinner! We're having cake! What's a girl supposed to do!? Maybe I'll kick it with Phase 1 for a week to make up for this weekend.

Can we talk about my favorite (relatively new) dress pants that I wore to church this morning. They're baggy. I look like droopy drawers. MrG told me my kids (my students) were going to think it was awesome because I'd be "sagging" like they always do. Not exactly the look I was going for. I'm sad that they're my favorite pants but glad at the same time because OMG THIS IS ACTUALLY WORKING!!!!!! I'm going to have to look for a tailor, fast.

So. We're already back into November due dates again. It hits me hard when they're close to the end of the year and my hope of having a 20(08... 09... 10...)baby are thrown out the window. In addition to that trying and doing a lot of proactive stuff - other than doing it like bunnies - makes the issues more heavy on my heart. Went to my board last night... BFP. Got on Facebook after church... BFP. I'm trying not to jump into the pool of "Woe is me" and remember that there's a reason for this. It's one that I don't understand and I'd love an explanation but I guess it's not time for me to have one yet.

Our pastor was out sick today and the pastor that was there before him covered the morning service. He talked about how we should put God before everything - family, friends, job, HEALTH. Health. I probably need to work on that. He also said that no matter what our circumstance is, there is a way that God can use you to minister to others through that. I contacted the head of woman's ministry around Mother's Day 2009 and she said that an IF support group was "at the top of a very short list of things for her to do this summer". Maybe she meant 2010 because I haven't seen anything in the bulletin or heard from her about it since. I think it's time for another email. I've been through a lot and I want to be able to help others in person. The internet is great but e-hugs only help so much.

Ok. I'm off to bake brownies for the birthday boy.

I promise not to eat any of those.

I can't make the same promise about the strawberry cake in the fridge.

Jillian's going to kick my rear but the weekend has been fun and worth it.

Happy Birthday MrG!!!

(This picture was taken last year in April)

Happy 27th Birthday to the most wonderful man I know. I love you so very much (not that you'll read this) and I appreciate your strength and patience with my craziness every single day.


Saturday, February 20, 2010

I think cake is my weakness.

I'm guessing that this week's weigh in won't be so good due to back pain (not being able to work out! SUCKS!!) and it being MrG's birthday.

He asked the lady at work for my favorite kind of cake for his birthday celebration there and he brought OVER HALF of it home!! I had a (smallish) piece and couldn't even finish it because the icing was so sugary - I could tear through a piece of this when I got it for my birthday last year! I guess that's a good sign but it's still not good for the dieting.

It WAS delicious though.... :)

Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Just because I can't eat them...

Doesn't mean I can't make them!!

I whipped up a batch of these with MrG tonight for him to take to work tomorrow.

His coworkers have seriously considered putting a jar out for donations and have me bake them stuff for him to bring so that we're not always buying all of the ingredients. It cracks me up. They've even started putting in requests. I love it. :)

I won't lie. I ate a little one. They're amazing if I do say so myself (which i think I can because I didn't write the recipe I just put it all together). Delicious. Definitely not in the diet plan but I couldn't help it.

Today I had an RE appointment. I had an ultrasound - the tech said she saw a few little ones on the right but the left ovary had one good follicle so I got my HCG trigger shot. Way better than before. I used to get it in the hip/butt area but this nurse put it in my lower abdomen. More fat + less muscle = didn't hurt as bad! We were given orders to have sex the next 3 days then "whenever I feel like it after that". LOL I can't help but laugh that other people know so much about my sex life. As horrible as IF is I'm glad I can manage to find some humor in it - silly as it may be.

Ok need to head off to bed because I have early bus duty in the morning (lame). Two more days and this weekend is MrG's birthday!! :D

Tuesday, February 16, 2010

Two Blog Awards

Because I'm a blogger slacker. The first one is from over a month ago (I can't believe I forgot to do it before now. I feel like this month FLEW by).

It's from my sweet friend Kelly

I am supposed to tell you ten random, honest things about myself. Here they are in no particular order.

1. I am adopted. My mom suffered for years trying to have kids and they were never able to conceive. My brother is adopted too but not from the same family. Interesting that I'm dealing with IF too, huh?

2. I was the drum major in high school. I played the saxophone in band, went through drum major camp and learned a ton to come back and have my sexist band director not let me do anything with what I learned. I still loved it though! :)

3. I'm pretty good at baking but not as good at cooking. I feel like I should be able to do both but I just don't think I'm a very good cook.

4. I hate making the grocery list and planning meals! Especially when MrG tells me he doesn't care what we eat EVERY. TIME. I. ASK. But then when I say "Ok we'll have this" and he says "Oh I don't like that". Help me out!! Sheesh!

5. Since we're talking about food - the smell of food grosses me out lately. I have no idea why. It's bizarre and I don't like it. I may have blogged about this already but... I can't remember and I'm not that interesting so I'm BSing a few of these :)

6. I hate where I live. When I moved to the "south" I thought I was moving to THE south. Mid-south =/= THE south. I was hoping for Paula Deen charm on every corner not the kingdom of NASCAR, missing teeth and mullets.

7. I love snow. Not because I get out of school, because it's beautiful and it's a LOT prettier than ugly, brown, dead grass.

8. I used to drive a forklift over the summers when I was in college - and I love it.

9. I wish we hadn't bought our house but I love it dearly.

10. My childhood teddy bear's name was Timmy. I loved him.

OK On to award #2............

My twin from the coast TW nominated me for this one - Thanks babe! :)

Isn't it lovely? I'm quite proud. In order to receive the award, the following must be completed:
  1. Thank the person(s) who nominated you and link their blogs. Done and done!
  2. Copy the award and paste it above. Check!
  3. Tell us 7 interesting things about yourself. 7 more?!? Eesh!
  4. Nominate 7 bloggers that you love and link to their blogs. I will try
But first, here are 7 mildly interesting things about me.
  1. I teach class piano but I'm not that great of a player myself. I can do enough to get by and definitely have enough skills to teach beginners but I'd rather be teaching chorus... sometimes... :)
  2. I think hunting is gross. I could easily convert to be a fruititarian if I think about what meat really is long enough.
  3. I have a secret life online. Shhhh... don't tell anyone. I'm sure none of you know that.
  4. I love the fact that my twin plays sax too! As I mentioned with award #1 I played/play saxophone. I always played alto in intermediate/middle/high school and when I got to college played bari and it was WAY better :)
  5. There are many days that I wish I was a nurse.
  6. I want to live somewhere closer to the ocean or mountains... or both...
  7. I love Disneyworld and can't wait to go back.

Ok for the whole nominating thing? Yeah I think everyone has already received these awards so how about this? If you HAVEN'T been nominated for one or both of these consider yourself nominated. NOW.

Monday, February 15, 2010

I think I over did it today

I didn't eat much all day long and then I did the shred tonight. I tried level 2 to see how it was. I think I could have done it better had I eaten more food (and food that was healthier for me). I've had tummy troubles since right after the workout and I feel totally drained now. I downed a big glass of "gatorade" (generic sports drink from Walmart LOL). I think I just need to go to bed.

I weighed this morning and I'm down to 215 - that's 3lbs down from last week. I have lost 13 and have 15 to go before my goal date. I'm going to cheat less and workout more and I THINK I'll have it! :) If not I'll get pretty darn close and will be pleased no matter what (as long as I don't gain any back of course).

Today I had a fun day with MrG. We went to see Valentine's Day and it was SUPER cute. Then I had an eye appointment and he helped me pick out new glasses. They look like this but are black with cream accents...source
(**weirdness right there ^ I can't get the text above the pic to right align w/o the "source" below it right aligning too. Creeepyyyyy)

I'll PIP me wearing them when I get them in. I hope they don't take long. They're supposed to take about a week. I love the ones I have but they're brown/neutral tones and I wanted some to wear with black/grey because a LOT of my clothes are black and I'm too anal to wear brown glasses with them. LOL

Ok going to set the timer on my coffee pot and head to bead. I've got early bus duty in the morning and I'm tired already. Happy Monday! :)

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

10 pounds + 60 followers

Fun milestones. I've lost 10 lbs now. I was a little disappointed in "only" losing 2lbs last week but I know that's supposed to be the healthy way and I blame the rest on AF. 60 blog followers is just fun. :) I don't know why you stick around but, ok!

I love the days off but seriously. Going to work on Thursday and Friday isn't good for these kids. This is the 2nd week in a row they're only going to school Thursday and Friday. What's worse? It's a 3 day weekend with President's day!! I mean yay for time off but I'm ready for my routine back (did I really just say that?).

I've started my Clomid again. My last doctor had me taking it days 5-9 but the RE has me going days 3-7 so maybe it'll work better this time? I try to be hopeful but at the same time I hate setting myself up for disappointment.

I found a nursery that I LOVE. It has been a long time since I've even looked at nursery stuff but it's just great. It's from the Me and Wee blog and the nursery pics are right in that entry I linked right there. I'm not big on matchy stuff and we already have the bedding I posted about a while ago (here). I think I can take ideas from the new find and incorporate them with the circle bedding (especially since the bedding stuff is discontinued!). Anyway I need a pic of it since I've been picture-less lately so here

pic here

See the circles on the wall?! Those are embroidery hoops with fabric on them!! Genius!! I love it! :) I also love how she put the "wood" look on the dresser. It was originally all white - she used wallpaper to make it look like that. So awesome.

SO... enough of that silliness. I need to eat breakfast (almost lunch now) and do a little workout. I'm doing 2 today because I skipped 2 days and paid for it last night. A little extra cardio never hurt anybody either (especially THIS body!!).

Sunday, February 7, 2010

Food (South Beach Phase 2 edition)

My pantry, refrigerator and freezer have had a makeover. It's funny how "healthy" foods are almost always perishables! My fridge has been getting a workout the past few weeks for sure! I'm moving on to Phase 2 of South Beach which opens all sorts of doors for me and is a LITTLE more lenient but when you pick the right stuff you're still supposed to lose weight (though not as rapidly as Phase 1).

I need to tell you how much I love Crystal Light. Really. It has been a life saver with this whole diet. MrG has been drinking the lemonade for a while and I've tried it on occasion - it's really good. I also picked up the Peach Mango Green tea packs and they're fantastic too.

I ran across these at the store and we had to try them...

I had strawberry and MrG had orange and they're delicious.

We also found these (fruit punch/orange and lemonade/raspberry lemonade)
*ps they lied to me. They said if I'd take their survey I'd get a coupon.
Finished the whole thing and it said there weren't any coupons available to print. Lame.

I just ate a bowl of this because I was hungry and didn't eat anything really for breakfast/lunch. By the way when a medication says to take it with food... take it with food. I was totally out of it at the grocery store and dropped the milk I was trying to get out of the cooler. Oops. :(

Surprise! It doesn't taste like cardboard!! HOORAY!!! :) I'm full and happy from just one cup so this cereal gets 2 thumbs up from me!

I also grabbed a box of this kind which cracks me up because it looks like it's geriatric cereal from the "Good Friends" on the front of the box who are two older people. High Fiber = you're old by the way. :)

I haven't tasted it yet but I will definitely let you know how it is. Hopefully it's yummy like good ole Uncle Sam. The fact that they refer to parts of their cereal as "twigs" freaks me out a little but I'll give it a shot.

I'm going to make my own granola sometime soon and I'm really excited about that. I am also allowed to have yogurt and found some lighter sugar/carb yogurt that will be AWESOME. I've missed yogurt and never realized how much sugar was in the average carton!! It's CRAZY!

I hope that was randomly informative in some way. I'm off to make soup for our commercial party tonight... I mean... Super Bowl party... yeah. ;)

Saturday, February 6, 2010

Wedding outfit :)

My "little" brother's getting married on March 19th. I've been stressing out about what to wear and we just started browsing on a whim tonight when we were at the mall. I have put off buying a dress until now because I hoped I'd either be pregnant or would have lost weight by then. Looks like I'll continue working on the latter of the two for the next 5 weeks since the pregnant thing hasn't happened yet.

I've been wearing an 18/20 at Lane Bryant the past year or so. We looked at JCPenney today and found a dress that fit - a size 16!! :) This picture was taken after dinner with no "roll control" (what I ever so affectionately call my Spanx). The day of the wedding I'll have my Spanx on so it'll smooth out and hold things in place a little better.

There's a little place in the seam that wasn't sewn completely (on the left side) and we're going to fix it. It got me an extra 10% off so I figured it was worth it! Plus I knew the lady ringing us up and she used a coupon too. Original price $99, it was on sale and after we got the extra off and used our gift card we only paid $33

The only thing to say about these is that they're awesome and I love them. :) $39 at Kohl's.


AF is here. I called the RE yesterday to set up my ultrasound date, got my Rx for clomid set up I just need to pick it up, just got off the phone with Freedom Pharmacy to get my HCG Rx and I took yesterday's workout off. We were both in bed by 9:30 and I think I was asleep by 9:33. AF always knocks me out the first day or two.

I was proud yesterday. I resisted the urge to get in the car and drive to McDonald's to trash my diet. I didn't follow the diet plan but I also wasn't as bad as I could have been. I had peanut butter toast and a little less than half of Corey's Oatmeal Cream Pie - I felt scandalous! LOL I would have accompanied it with chocolate milk but I didn't have any chocolate! I'll get back on the workout/diet wagon today. I'm still kinda crampy but I want to push through it.

Cycle 29. Here we go again. I'm determined to temp this cycle. I totally forgot to last cycle. I really need to get it together!

Thursday, February 4, 2010

I can't believe I'm about to do this...

This is the "before" at Day 18
*post dinner (as if that makes a difference) - pre workout*

Well there you have it. Holy crap.

I'll work on a shot that shows legs too. The middle is clearly the problem area anyway. I looked even worse in the ones MrG took of me so we'll go with this for now.

In better news I did the Shred 2 days in a row and I'm not passed out on the floor and my back doesn't hurt! Score!

AND... my day was made by 7:15am. The resource officer at our school asked me this morning what I did while I was gone for the snow break because I looked different. I asked him what he meant and he said I looked thinner - that it took him a second to put his finger on WHAT was different but that I looked slimmer. I almost passed out in the middle of the hallway. If I weren't married I probably would have kissed the man. ;) Best compliment ever.

Can I shred tomorrow too? We shall see. Right now my left calf is cramped up but I'm going to be hopeful that it'll feel better tomorrow.

Wednesday, February 3, 2010

Good morning!!!

I didn't get to do the shred last night because my back was KILLING ME all day long. It wasn't an injury really, just recurring back problems that I've had since high school. I sat in my tub for a LONG TIME last night rereading the South Beach book because I didn't read it before I started this time. That was a really good idea because my back feels a lot better this morning!

I'm still not back to school! I met my husband for lunch yesterday and the roads from here to there were just fine. I guess it's some of the back roads that still have ice on them. Supposedly it's some of the ones near schools too - I'm not sure WHICH schools but oh well. I've had 6 days off now! I was only expecting a 3 day weekend! Pretty cool. :)

I need to put up some pictures but I don't have any good ones. Maybe I'll get that "before" picture taken tonight. I can't wait to have an after picture to post!

Ok off to figure out what to eat for breakfast! Happy Hump Day!

Monday, February 1, 2010

February 1st = 30 Day Shred Day 1... again.

Ok if I do the 30 Day Shred 5 days a week starting now until wedding week (my little brother gets married March 19th) I'll get all of my 30 days in with 3 days to spare the week before we fly up there.

I'm really going to try to stay positive that I can survive through this. I don't think I've ever worked out 5 days a week but I'm really going to set my mind to it this time. I'd love to fly home in March looking better than I looked when I left at Christmas!

I'll have to take a "before" picture tomorrow BEFORE I work out cause I look rough right now. My face stays the color of a tomato for an hour or so after I work out. I don't know why - it's always done that. Quite embarrassing in high school going to class after gym! ;)

Ok chugging some water then heading to bed. Good night blog world!

So... about that weight loss...

I lost 5lbs this week. That's 8lbs in 2 weeks. I started at 228, last week I weighed 225 and this week it was 220. I'm pretty happy with that!!! I finally weigh less than my husband again (that is something that has bothered me for a long long time).

Maybe if I actually work out this week I'll do great again. I'm going to stick to Phase 1 for one more week. South Beach Diet wants people only to stay on Phase 1 for 2-3 weeks at a time because it's not the healthiest. I don't think I can stand much more than a week of this because I NEED FRUIT!!!!!!!

I wonder if I can lose 20 more by my brother's wedding on March 19th...

What a great way to start the week!! No school and losing weight!