Sunday, August 30, 2009

Puts me in tears EVERY SINGLE TIME.

Our choir (not the one featured here) sang this today at church. Every time I hear it/sing it I'm in tears. So powerful. So true. Please take a few minutes to watch it.

Saturday, August 29, 2009

Bah. Stupid fever.

I discarded my temperature this morning. I had a slight fever last night and apparently have one this morning too. My temp was 99.46 so I just didn't include it on my chart. I hope I feel better soon because tonight is the Starlight Symphony and I'm supposed to be going. Maybe I'll take some tylenol to help - hopefully it'll help with my sore throat too.

(pic found here)

Friday, August 28, 2009

That'll brighten my day!

My day started good because it's Friday and I'm eating sushi for dinner. Those two things were BARELY balancing out the fact that I feel like absolute crap. Then I found out I'm losing my classroom and will have to teach room to room on a cart. Suckfest.

When I got home one of the books I ordered was in the mailbox making it a little better again.
I'll let you know how it is. I'm waiting for this one to get here...

Sore throat :(

Seriously... I feel like poo. It just hit me late last night and is bad if not worse this morning. I hate trying to get a substitute the morning of so I'll go in and tough it out I suppose. I may be showing them a movie but I'll be there. :(

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

In Christ Alone...

So I was on my way to work today and was listening to the practice CD for church choir. We're doing a concert with Travis Cottrell. He's on tour and brings his ensemble but we're going to be the backup choir. It sounds really cool and I'm pretty excited about it.

This song came on and had me on the brink of tears as I was driving. It's so powerful and so true. It was a great day to have a reminder like this and I love the hymn he puts in it too. Such an amazing song. :)

In Christ alone my hope is found.
He is my light, my strength, my song.
This Cornerstone, this solid ground,
Firm through the fiercest drought and storm.
What heights of love, what depths of peace;
When fears are stilled, when strivings cease;
My Comforter, my All in All,
Here in the love of Christ I stand.

In Christ alone, who took on flesh,
Fullness of God in helpless babe.
This gift of love and righteousness,
Scorned by the ones He came to save.
‘Til on that cross as Jesus died,
The wrath of God was satisfied.
For every sin on Him was laid,
Here in the death of Christ I live.

There in the ground His body lay.
Light of the world by darkness slain.
Then bursting forth in glorious Day,
Up from the grave He rose again.
And as He stands in victory,
Sin’s curse has lost its grip on me.
For I am His and He is mine
Bought with the precious blood of Christ.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand.
All other ground is sinking sand.
All other ground is sinking sand.

On Christ the solid Rock I stand.
All other ground is sinking sand.
All other ground is sinking sand.

No guilt in life, no fear in death,
This is the power of Christ in me.
From life’s first cry to final breath,
Jesus commands my destiny.
No power of hell, no scheme of man,
Can ever pluck me from His hand.
‘Til He returns or calls me home,
Here in the power of Christ I’ll stand.

Monday, August 24, 2009

"Mommy? Where do babies come from?"


Needles & Specimen cups...


Scary instruments...
Long nights, anticipation and of course tons of love.
p.s. I look ROUGH! This shows how much I love my readers.
Not just anyone would get a nasty pic like this! :)

Good job ovaries!!

WOOT! I took my temp this morning and there was NOT a temp spike (which is awesome this time). Hopefully it'll happen today and be lined up perfectly with the IUI!! I'm really hoping this works. I've been extremely prayerful today and hope God forgives me for the countless times I've fallen short in seeking Him.

If I didn't know better I'd think it was the song in yesterday's blog that kept them at bay...

Sunday, August 23, 2009

Throw back to my childhood

CRAP! I have a bunch of EWCM today and I'm getting twinges on my right side (where the follicle that was ready on Friday is located). I'm supposed to get my trigger shot today and IUI tomorrow! HOLD ON FOR ONE MORE DAY OVARIES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Saturday, August 22, 2009

House stuff...

I wish all of this would make someone drive by and ask if they could buy our house but I don't think that's going to happen unless we at LEAST put a sign out!!

THIS is the progress we had made on the front landscaping (scroll to the bottom of that monstrous post).

We really weren't pleased with the brown mulch so we went and got black today

I'll take more tomorrow - and snap a few of the back yard too. The last one's kinda blurry because it was getting dark and I didn't have the flash on.

Friday, August 21, 2009

IUI Update

After my appointment that the last blog was about I went back the next day and talked to my doctor about getting an ultrasound on CD12 (today) instead of CD13 since they're closed on Saturdays. I couldn't bring myself to shoot blindfolded and risk the money for an IUI when we wouldn't even know if there were even a possibility of it working.

Had the ultrasound today and the u/s tech saw one that was ready for sure and a few potential ones that will hopefully grow more between now and Sunday when I get the injection. She said my lining looked good (and I haven't even taken my estradiol yet which is supposed to help it even more).

So my doctor who's always out of the office? Yeah the tech tried to call him on his cell phone and he didn't answer. Then they called the house and his wife had to track him down because he was outside 4-wheeling with his son. Raise your hand if you're glad I'm going to see the RE if this cycle doesn't work!!

Busy weekend ahead! Going to see MrG's cousin graduate from nursing school with her LPN tonight, tomorrow I'm cleaning the house FOR REAL this time and Sunday will be church, injection, lunch with the ILs and back home to plan for next week!

Monday, August 17, 2009

Another step forward - IUI on Monday

I definitely just spent over 2 hours in the doctor's office. I called to see if I needed an ultrasound (thinking we were going to repeat what we've done the last 2 cycles) and the nurse told me to come in and talk to the doctor about insemination.

I asked if 4pm would be ok and she said yes. An hour and a half later I was still waiting to see the doctor - but it was totally cool because Mr.G made it to the "appointment" in time!

I asked questions (he says he loves my questions but I can't help but feel like Elaine from Seinfeld in the "difficult" patient episode!) and we discussed options. I didn't tell him about the RE appointment I have scheduled - I'll just cross that bridge when I get to it (hopefully I won't need the appointment at all and will be able to cancel!).

Problem is the day I would normally get an ultrasound to do a follie check lands on a Saturday and the clinic isn't open. The doctor and nurse both assured me it'd be ok to go ahead without one but honestly I'm still a little nervous about it.

We're having a friend of ours give me my injection on Sunday (because Corey's a wimp and they prefer to have someone trained do it so it was that or go to Convenient Care). Then we'll do the IUI on Monday!!

Please pray for us!! :)

Better than I could ever say it

Read this.

I can't even follow that with anything else so that's all I'll say.

Saturday, August 15, 2009

Yard Sale

We're having a yard sale today. We're sitting in the garage and have been out here since 6am. HUGE boom between 6 and 7 (people who go out this early are CRAZY but I guess they get the good stuff!). We've done pretty well and don't have TOO much left over! MIL is coming to haul the left overs to Goodwill in a little while (since a bunch of it is hers anyway).

Yay for getting rid of crap and yay for some extra cash (that will probably go towards IF bills...)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

HAIR!! :)

I got my hair done! TWICE! lol I got it cut a bit last week and wasn't COMPLETELY happy with it (though it was very cool) so I had some more work done on it last night and now I LOVE it!

I'm also rocking my SimplyVera jewelry that I got at Kohl's on clearance. $10 for both pieces. :)

Monday, August 10, 2009

RE appointment set

We've been discussing adoption lately and have decided to gamble on an RE a little to see if anything comes out of it before we move to the adoption path. I called and made sure we didn't need a referral to go to the RE and got an appointment for September 23 (that was the soonest they had. Crazy!) with a woman doctor. I hope this is worth it. I guess while we wait we'll give it another shot with my OB since the appointment is a cycle and a half away!


I start teaching today and AF decides to show up. CD1 & 2 are always the most brutal with cramps and nastiness so this is just perfect.

I'm going to call the nearest RE's office today. My options are limited and I have to drive at least an hour to get to one so I'm not in a position to be choosy about it. I'm going to find out if I need a doctor's referral or if I can just refer myself.

Gotta finish getting ready. I have to stop and get gas on the way.

Saturday, August 8, 2009

So... I'm a dork. :)

Super cheesy, I know.

Oh it gets worse. Wait for it....

Oh yes I did. :)

Another day... another BFN...

You know how it goes around these parts. Same 'ole same 'ole.
There was an outbreak of BFPs today which got my hopes up. Silly me.

It might be time for me to take another baby area internet break. I feel it wearing on me again. I'd keep checking FB of course but I'll probably shy away from other areas.

Any time now AF. Any time.

So remember that sermon I talked about...

The one that had me bawling like a baby in the middle of church?

Good news! They posted it to my church's website!

Here it is. It's so good. I'm really glad he talked about it. It was fairly brief and is towards the beginning.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Preeeeetty sure

that cycle 23 is knocking on my door. Crappy chart, cramps and bloat. Same song 23rd verse.

Saturday, August 1, 2009

I'm coming out!!

Ahhh yes. The big t-w-o. The last time I took BCP was two years ago. I never got my period after band camp was over so I didn't start my next pills. We discussed it and decided to "see what happens" and "let nature take it's course". LOL! Ah, to be naive again... What a crazy journey we've had.

I decided today that I wanted to come out of the infertility closet on facebook. It made me super nervous and I toiled over how to word it. I am prepared for the flood of stupid that will inevitably head my direction at any time now but I almost feel better after putting it out there. I hate keeping secrets (I'm usually terrible at it) and part of me feels like I'm living a lie by keeping it bottled up. Not only that but I can't stop thinking of all the other people I could be helping that are going through the same thing!

Of course I totally see the other side of this where it's no one's dang business as to what's going on in my uterus and how much sex we're having but I think I can sassily deflect those comments.

Let's be real though - I'm still not giving my blog address out to people. I'd go nuts if I couldn't come here to complain about people telling me to "stop trying to hard" and to "adopt a kid and you'll get pg cause it always happens like that"! It'd just be silly to do that! :)