My desire to go back to school for something other than music has been solidified today.
I auditioned for a part in the local theater production of Fiddler on the Roof and didn't get a single thing. I'm not even in the chorus! Nothing. I think I'll go on and live my life as if I never ever had any desire to be a musician/singer. I'm apparently no good at any of this and my entire college career was a joke because people at that school treat everyone like they can sing. Lies.
I think what made it even worse is that one of the judges (the vocal director of the production) is a colleague of mine. Someone I looked up to as a mentor. I thought she was great. She's a great teacher. I should have known I'd never hack it and have no desire to ever be an attention loving diva (something she is very good at).
My favorite part was my diva friend trying to console me saying "There'll be other musicals" as if I've never auditioned and not been accepted before. As if I don't know what it's like to be a professional musician. Ridiculous.
I'm seriously laughing to myself. I feel like my entire life has been a joke.
New summer plan - let's find something new to go back and get a USEFUL degree in, and make a baby.
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