Tuesday, March 31, 2009

Fuji it is! (and Happy 100th Post!!!)

Happy 100th Post oh Blog of mine!! :)

*and now back to your regularly scheduled randomness...



I bought some Fuji apples to try and I LOVE them. My mom always used to only buy Jonathan apples when I was younger and I hated them. I needed something crispy and juicy so I went to Granny Smiths. Now that I have sweetness AND crunch I don't know if I can ever go back! :) YUM!




Really PreK-Nazi-Teacher? REALLY?!?

Let me preface this entry by saying that I teach grades PreK-4th at TWO different schools and add a few Special Ed classes (that aren't in my hours count and I shouldn't have to teach).

So there's this PreK teacher. Drives everyone crazy (myself included). Another PreK teacher (and semi-friend of mine) told me about a song that she had on CD and liked for the PreK Graduation at the end of the year. She said listen to it and see what I thought but if I had other things planned it'd be fine.

It's been a while and I forgot about it so I picked 3 songs and voluntarily burned them CDs with the songs (CDs that I paid for with my own money). I had one to PreK Nazi Teacher.

She looks at me like I'm an idiot and says "Didn't you get the song from S that we talked about at our grade group meeting?"

Now I'm going back and re-burning CDs so they include this other song too because I have nothing better to do with my time and no other classes/grades to plan for other than theirs. The only reason I'm burning the CDs is because she and the 3rd PreK teacher don't know how to load music files when I send them through email.

Seriously? Remove your head from your rear and take a look around. For real.

Monday, March 30, 2009

Road Rage.

This is me driving in this horrible town...

No, seriously. I was thisclose to flipping someone the bird today but having an Ichthus fish on the back of my car made me think twice. Seriously though. I wanted to ram someone with my car. People here can't drive and aren't required to take driver's ed before getting their license. Insanity I tell you.

Reason #174,839,392,785 that TN sucks.

ok I'm done.

New favorite website

Hungry Girl

It's clear that I am a {very} hungry girl.

I think this site will help me on my journey. I've found tons of awesomeness so far (as I posted just before this) so I'm really excited about it.

That's all. Just wanted to share!

Oh Baby!!

No I'm not pregnant but I found something I need to try

I've experienced these little things while babysitting but never thought to stick one in my own mouth and try them!

At 0.5 points for 80 pieces (yes I know they're tiny) I think they're worth a shot!!

P.S. Kelly - I haven't forgotten you I've just been busy and trying to get back in the groove with school. I'll email you soon! I lost 1.8 lbs at weigh in this week - not what I was hoping for but I'll do better this week for sure. :)


Back to reality...

Blech. This sucks and I'm not even teaching today. Nothing like the first day back from spring break to remind me how much I hate teaching. I can't complain too much I guess since I HAVE a job (as of right now - budget cuts in this area always threaten fine arts teachers first). I really don't want this to be my career though. I want to be doing something I LOVE (or at least enjoy... something I DON'T hate - how about we say it that way?).

The rest of the year will surely fly by. I don't teach a 5 day week until the last full week I have students and that's not until May 4-8! That makes it a little better :)

Happpy (?) Monday!

Saturday, March 28, 2009

I ovulated!

I'm going to try my best to ignore the 2ww this time. We didn't have the greatest timing so I'm definitely not getting my hopes up. AF is due on April 8th or 9th and my appointment is the 13th so either way I guess the timing will work out either way! (Chart link is at the bottom of the blog for anyone interested). I didn't think I had O'ed yet and was waiting for a BIG spike (that I got today) but they say I O'ed a few days ago.

Today's agenda is going to Weight Watchers, going to the gym, nice long hot shower, tanning and then the mall with finishing up the cleaning thrown in there sometime.

Happy Saturday! I'm sad that I'm back to reality on Monday so I'm going to make the best of this weekend! ;)

Friday, March 27, 2009

New Song!

I'm adding this song to be the first one that plays on my blog when you open it. It's so powerful and so significant in my life right now. I hope you enjoy it as much as I do.

Here are the lyrics!

Praise You in This Storm
words by Mark Hall/music by Mark Hall and Bernie Herms

I was sure by now,God, that You would have reached down
and wiped our tears away,
stepped in and saved the day.
But once again, I say amen
and it's still raining
as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain,
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away.

Chorus:
And I'll praise you in this storm
and I will lift my hands
for You are who You are
no matter where I am
and every tear I've cried
You hold in your hand
You never left my side
and though my heart is torn
I will praise You in this storm

I remember when I stumbled in the wind
You heard my cry to You
and raised me up again
my strength is almost gone how can I carry on
if I can't find You
and as the thunder rolls
I barely hear You whisper through the rain
"I'm with you"
and as Your mercy falls
I raise my hands and praise
the God who gives and takes away

Chorus

I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth
I lift my eyes onto the hills
where does my help come from?
My help comes from the Lord, the maker of heaven and earth

Chorus

Blogging about food... again...

I've been having trouble figuring out why I keep blogging about food all the time and this morning it hit me. I have no kids, my dogs are behaving, I hate my job and my town and I haven't read any good books lately PLUS I've started Weight Watchers so I guess that's what I think about to keep my mind off of being infertile. A girl's gotta do what a girl's gotta do! :)

I went grocery shopping at WalMart yesterday ::convulses:: and actually found some really great stuff that my Kroger doesn't carry (or it was more $ than I wanted to spend)!

WW Amaretto Cheesecake Yogurt


Holy crap this stuff is AMAZING!! It doesn't even have that tart yogurty aftertaste! It was smooth and sweet and like heaven in my mouth. Plus it's only one WW point so that's WAY better than the other yogurt I had that was 2-3pts! Ouch! This stuff is worth going to WalMart on a regular basis for (no matter how much that will hurt me on the inside). 5 stars. Awesome.

Kashi Cinnamon Harvest Cereal
I have yet to find a Kashi product that I don't like. These are delicious. I'm a frosted mini wheats lover so I was a little skeptical when I picked these up because they didn't have any frosting on them. Turns out I was dead wrong worrying about the taste because they're fabulous. The light sweet cinnamony flavor is perfect. I'd compare it to the flavor of Cinnamon Life cereal which I also enjoy. I'd consider it the perfect combination of shredded wheat and cinnamon Life. So good I'm about to have another bowl! :)

Kashi (again) Pumpkin Spice Flax
I discovered these little beauties a few years ago but forgot about them because I quit going to the dreaded store. These are great. Not too pumpkiny and the spice flavor isn't that strong. I like them because they just FEEL healthier than other granola bars I've been buying. Plus I love the pumpkin seeds in them. They remind me of autumn and since that's my all time favorite season that's a great thing!

Ok I'm done for now. That should hold you over for a while :)


Thursday, March 26, 2009

Today's fruit adventure...

So I've decided that I'm going to experiment with new food. Mostly fruits and veggies but I'll go with others too. SO! Here is my first installment of Mrs. G's Great Food Adventure! :)

pic found here

KUMQUATS!!

I've always admired this cute little fruit but was always scared to try them so today I stepped up to the plate and bought some.

When you bite into them they are EXTREMELY sour but immediately go to a sweet place which makes them rather crazy. I have decided that they are comparable to nature's version of SourPatch Kids. They're good but I couldn't eat too many at once that's for sure!

8 medium kumquats = 1 Weight Watchers point


Lemons!

When life gives me lemons I want to make this.

I wonder if I could find any lemons this beautiful here in the craptastic mid-south...

I am going to try to lighten the recipe up a little (maybe Splenda and low fat sour cream/milk/whipped cream?). But I really really want to make this now. I really shouldn't blog when I'm hungry... :)

both photos found {here}.

Wednesday, March 25, 2009

NEW new blog look!

I switched to this one and made a new header for it because I love this one and it's springy :)

My new favorite blog/site...

The Pioneer Woman.

Where has she been all my blog-reading life?!

She was born and raised in the city but is now a stay at home mom who homeschools her 4 adorable children and loves cooking and taking care of them! I love it!

The pictures went over well yesterday so here are some pics of scrumptious (not so Weight Watchers friendly) food from her recipe section!

Tuesday, March 24, 2009

Ahhh.... I <3 three columns :)

I really like 3 column blogs. So nice. I needed a little room to stretch but I think that means I'll be changing my cool music player back to something smaller since it's mostly cut off anyway.

Nothing new here. I'm holding fast to my WW points. At first I thought this wouldn't be hard but it's turning out to be harder than I thought! I'm doing well and still have 2 of my extra points for the week left over (I spent most of them on day #1 because my friend wanted to go to Red Lobster one last time). Next week will be easier. :)

We're still waiting on my appointment with the new doctor. April 13th.

I love posting pictures. It breaks up the blog, gives you something to look at and lifts my spirits so here are some spring pictures that I think are inspirational :)
Bradford Pear Tree Flower found here

Spring Flowers - found here

Sunday, March 22, 2009

Oops...

Well this chart is SCREWED so far. I missed several temps and had a pretty good spike today and we've only done it one time. Dang it. Guess we'll be waiting to see the new doctor in April if my temp stays up. Oh well.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Weight Watchers

Ugh. Today my allergies are KILLING ME. I feel so helpless when it happens cause I'm already taking Zyrtec AND Singulair - not much more I can do other than suffer through them. :(

I'm joining Weight Watchers on Saturday. This is it. I'm done. I figure if I have to weigh in in front of people each week that I'll be embarrassed enough to do things right and take some of this weight off. I really hate this. I swear I'm gaining it in my middle and not just being a hypochondriac because when in went to get some new pants at Lane Bryant I've gone from a triangle shape to the square. I just keep wondering if it's from PCOS.

Speaking of that. I have an appointment on April 13th with a new OB. If nothing comes from this I'll be heading to an RE as so on as possible. I'm hoping this guy is better. I've heard good things about him so I hope it's all true! :)

Gotta finish my lunch. I have to stay in this building until 7:30 pm for parent-teacher conferences where no one (NO ONE) comes to see me. So I sit here. Biggest waste of time EVER.

Tomorrow's Friday and the beginning of my SPRING BREAK!! Hallelujah!!!!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

I feel like it's Thursday!

Why on earth is my brain tricking me into thinking it's Thursday?! Each time I realize it's only Wednesday I get mad. lol

This week can't go fast enough I guess.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Today I'm craving...

A frosty from Wendy's. I REALLY want a Shamrock Shake but have yet to find out if they even carry them down here.

I'm always bad as far as diet is concerned the week of AF. I'll admit it. I'm an emotional eater. This is why I'm so overweight. I remember eating a lot of junk as a kid too from being bored and emotional living with my mother. Who knew it would turn into something that didn't go away after childhood?

It's HOT here today! A week ago today I was at home with 9 inches of snow around me and today it's going to be in the 80s! What the crap!? I'm not ready for that big of a jump! Plus the heat in the older of my two classrooms (2 different schools) has to be switched from heat to air before it'll blow cool so I'm stuck with the windows open. :P DYING!

I think so punk 2nd grader knocked my clock off the wall on purpose and now I'm pissed. it's securely hanging on a nail on the wall. The wind has been blowing but not enough to knock it off of there. I started leading this class of little hellions out of the room and when came back the clock was on the floor.

CD2 + cramps + heat + time change = no good.

Monday, March 9, 2009

Going Green

These are too cute! :)



Baggu Grosgrain Guest GIVEAWAY!!!!

Looks like I have some phonecalls to make

I saw some spotting this morning and my temp has been on its way down for days now. I'm not surprised since I've been expecting the worst. I've decided to call a different OB in the area for a consult to see what they would do. If they're not willing to monitor me on clomid or test me for PCOS I think I'll try to get in with a RE. I've been avoiding that because of the long drive to get to one.

I have to update with my GREAT day at church yesterday that really helped me and lifted me but I haven't had a chance to organize those thoughts yet.


Saturday, March 7, 2009

Good things...



Cinnamon Sticks GUEST GROSGRAIN GIVEAWAY!!!!

Where are my eyelashes?!

I just realized that my little profile picture makes me look like I have no eyelashes when in reality they're extremely long.

I think I need a new pic. Maybe we'll work on that tonight.

Going down...

I'm just numb. I think I need to cry but I just can't. I'm so discontent and disappointed in everything right now I don't know what to do. I just want to hide and never come out again. I don't want people to see me and I definitely don't want to see people. If I could hide from myself I'd do that too so I'm trying to figure out a way to make that one work.

I'm tired of being this big. I'm tired of my face breaking out. I'm tired of getting my hopes up over and over. I'm tired of feeling like my prayers are going unanswered. I'm tired of living in this wretched town. I hate my job (I hate my chosen profession). I'm just ready to get something GOOD. I need some answers and solutions. I need a light at the end of the tunnel to look towards and this week it has been hard to hold on to hope.

So what do you do when you can't cry? I've been just sitting here. Numb. Nothing. I feel like I'm frozen. I don't want to do anything, I'm dying inside and I can't even cry. I guess my tears are spent and I need to find a different outlet.

I'm struggling with my walk with God. I have such a hole in my heart from a year and a half of TTC that I feel like I pray for a purpose, not just to have the relationship and communication with Him. How do I fix that? People tell me that tithing regularly has changed their lives - how do me make sure we do that without secretly hoping for something in return?

I got my very first "just relax and let it happen" last night - from a friend who got pg while on birth control. She even asked if I had tried OPKs. Seriously. This is one of many reasons why I haven't been telling IRL people. I don't want to deal with ignorance on the topic cause I can barely sort through the fact that it's happening in my own head let alone defend my heart from others' stupid comments. I guess I'll go back to keeping it to myself.

::pity party over::

I've been a huge butthole this week. Seriously. I've been grumpy every day and just extremely irritable. No reason for it - I guess it could be spring fever?

I've been volunteered to sing at someone's wedding (whom I don't even know) this afternoon. I don't appreciate being whored out like this and I didn't get a degree in music because I thought it was fun to sing for people to gush over how well I do (unlike my friend who has no musical experience and thinks he's the world's greatest singer). Then he told me I was supposed to act like I was professional. Excuse me, son. I AM the professional ::whispers:: and professionals get PAID::

I haven't painted my toenails since NYE! Seriously. I've got some work to do since it's over 70 today and I need to look presentable today! LOL

We're going on a double date tonight to Red Lobster. I'm excited. I've been looking forward to it all week long.

I need some breakfast and to start getting ready. Thanks for reading the crap I write (if anyone even made it this far). I hope everyone has a great weekend.

Friday, March 6, 2009

Oh the lies they will tell...

Before I start please remember I only see my students for an hour every other week. Two hours a month total.

Had a student go home and tell mom that yesterday a substitute teacher in my classroom CUT HER HAIR because she had gum in it. First off I was HERE yesterday (no sub). Secondly she didn't even come to my class because her teacher kept her in the room for being in trouble making her story an even bigger lie than it was before.

Seriously?

What. The. CRAP?!?!?!

No playtime today :(

I won't be playing today. Thenest won't let me log in. Great addition to my Friday. I'm going to make the best of it and get things done so I won't feel stressed next week.

Headache

I know I just talked about driving in my last post but it would take me YEARS to document all the stupid crap that happens driving around this awful town. I hate living here. People are EXTRA dumb. They do not know how to drive - at all! I think my blood pressure TRIPLES as I try to get to work in the mornings. It's insane. Seriously. I can't wait to get out of here.

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

T-7 days until testing.

Over the past year and a half I've learned that I hate (HATE!!!!!) seeing BFNs. My LP is usually13 days so I will be testing next week Wednesday at the very earliest. I promise not to be an AW about it I'm just bored and wanted to post an update. I will say I have 56 "pregnancy points" but I have a feeling that you can fail on getting pg but pass on points.

As I was driving to work today I passed a girl (while in fairly heavy traffic) putting on her eye makeup. Not only was she putting on her eye makeup but she was using her rear view mirror to do so - obviously she wasn't using it for it's intended purpose. I have never had any desire to implement this into my morning commute and never will. It's SO dangerous and I'm sure it'd look like crap in the end anyway!

PSA to this morning's make up girl - If you're not "born with it" put your face on in the safety of your bathroom and focus on driving while you're on the road. I mean you could even wait till you got to the parking lot at work/school! Goodness knows the world's worst drivers live in my town so even if you're NOT one of them they are ALL AROUND YOU! Oh, and you're an idiot. :)

Tuesday, March 3, 2009

::whistles and twiddles thumbs::

Have I ever told you how much I hate the 2 week wait?

Yes?

Ok. Just checking.

Sunday, March 1, 2009

I love snow!! (pictures!!)

Too bad it's March 1st and we didn't have ANY at Christmas!